Lunchtime Ramblings: Musings of a December Monday

It’s seven days til Christmas! I’m not sure where this year has gone! Well, I grasp the passage of time but I do feel like it’s zoomed past!

There are also two weeks left of this year, I’m not really into this new year new me nonsense, but it is my opportunity to think about how I want the year ahead to take shape.

Normally at this time of year I make a list of all the things I dislike about myself and try to channel them into ways I’m going to change. I’m not really into that anymore.

I’ll always want to be the best version of myself but that doesn’t mean I have to change everything about who I am.

That’s not me saying I’m awesome, flawless and require no self improvement, but I don’t need to become someone else to achieve it.

Right, that’s my mind cleansed of thoughts for Monday lunch time, I’m going to try and get back in the habit of getting my musings out of my head and onto paper more often.

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