New Year Musings: Goodbye 2017, Hello 2018.

It's the last day of 2017 and as I often do at this time of year I'm feeling inquisitive about what the coming year will bring.

In the past I've spent the entirety of this day thinking about all my flaws and imperfections, what I'd like to change and how I'd fit those into New Years resolutions.

In the last few years, whether it's come with age or circumstance, I've learned that I'm really not about New Years resolutions.

I even posted a blog about it in January which you can read here.

I do have some challenges I'd like to take on and some achievements I'd like to unlock across the next year but I'm not going to make them a must do, more of an I'd like to do.

There will be no need for me to feel like crap come the 5th of January when I haven't achieved the first 10 on a list of 15.

I'd like to change my blog a little, not much, but a little. When I first started my blog, it was really self therapy with the occasional review and over the last year it's been a smattering of my thoughts. I'd like to use it to embrace all things quirky in my life whether that's sharing my musings, sharing my experiences or sharing things I've found.

I'd like to write more, not just in my working day but in my leisure time, I used to write poetry, short stories, self reflections, letters to myself and others. I've sort of fallen out of the habit and I'd like to embrace that again.

I'd like to work on saying no to things I don't want to do or feel uncomfortable doing. I don't like saying to no people, it makes me feel bad. Sometimes I'll say yes and it won't do me any harm but other times it can put me in a situation I don't want to be in or cause me to miss out on something else. It can also hold me back from doing things I should be doing.

I need to lose that thing in my head that says saying no is a bad thing. It's okay to say yes but not when it has an impact on my own welfare, time sensitive commitments or headspace.

There are plenty of other ideas I have for how I'd like this year to take shape but if those don't come to fruition, that's completely okay. I've learned this week that I can't place too much of my happiness and contentment in what I've planned for, I also have to embrace what the day brings.

I know where I'd like to be 365 days from now and I've started taking steps to get there but if I have to deviate from that path, I'll be fine.

No New Year, New Me promises, just a more positive mindset.

See you in 2018.

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